What is strong? Being able to lift few kilograms of weight? Or being able to control one’s emotion even though they’ve been scarred too much? I’m not sure to be honest what’s the true meaning of strong.
Everyone has their different perspective of strong and some might even think they are strong. Well, they are not wrong truthfully speaking; they were able to withstand the challenges and obstacles they faced and they felt they became stronger overcoming those. I would say that is strong too. But what’s my definition of strong? Here you go:
Strong to me is like being able to control your feelings and not being obvious of our feelings through expressions; that way we won’t get exposed so easily and people won’t play narcissism on us anymore. Being able to control one feelings is difficult because we all know that sometimes our emotions are able to takeover our mind and in the end, we act according to our uncontrollable feelings without putting ourselves in other people’s shoes and at the end of the day, we might hurt people, especially the ones we love.
Strong is also being able to stand up for oneself; being able to love oneself and feel confident. I think it’s important to be strong in believing in oneself that one is pretty, handsome, cute, unique and special in many different ways. We have charms we don’t realize until now and only rare ones found it sooner and became strong faster as we envy at the side while we watch them being able to be confident and assured that their charms will attract the people they want to attract. We tend to look at the negativity in us instead of the positivity and depressed ourselves with hurtful words and turned ourselves into becoming so conscious and sensitive about what other says about us. That’s why if we were able to completely love ourselves first, we wouldn’t be doing things we dislike to fit in the norm anymore or just doing something so that we can reach to our envious goals.
To be honest, I can really say I’m not strong at all; not even half of the percentage of being strong. I still feel insecure around people, my emotions overtakes me most of the time and I ended up hurting loved ones and preventing them from doing what they wanted at first, I don’t have any confidence with my face with those dark eye circles no matter how many times ‘pretty’ is the word some people described me during our first impression and I don’t really love myself just because I feel I haven’t achieved anything in life yet despite studying so hard to get unaccountable certificates. I was and have never been strong at all even though I smile everyday and felt like I enjoyed my day but deep down, I’m just a weakling.
And since I know that I am not strong at all, I’ve been trying really hard to take first steps to becoming stronger. But of course there are obstacles in life that led me to not being able to do it; that’s why progression is really slow and even though it’s slow, I don’t want to give up. I’m just months to becoming 20 and I have many things to learn still and I don’t even know where to start and how to start becoming stronger but someway or another, I’ll find my way out and be able to stand strong and overcome those insecurities and emotional controls. As long as I continue to believe in God and myself, I’m sure I’ll be able to do it successfully and I hope I’ll be able to have people that will understand me and accepts the way I am and also helps me overcome these dizzy roller coaster rides.
Sincerely, Shannon.